I woke up this morning with the uneasiness of all the unknowns we would face today and the many days that lay ahead. Yesterday we arrived at a hospital hundreds of miles from home to help my son with a severe feeding problem. To say today was a hard transition is an understatement. I kept wondering how all this could possibly be our life. Our schedule today was jam packed with feeding therapy, speech therapy, occupational therapy, nurses and doctors and case workers. A lot to take in, all the while I'm missing my baby girl that I had to leave back home.
After a whole lot of crying (by him), very little eating (by us both) and a little person leeched onto me everywhere I move, we had a breakthrough. He ate some grapes and a graham cracker and my happy little man emerged. In true fashion the first thing he wanted to do was go outside. Of course! How could I turn him down? Out we went into a tiny play area with a few toys and a 12x12 patch of grass. He road the little red trike around and around until he was tired and ready to go in. As we started toward the door, out of nowhere, this small blue balloon floated down onto the ground in front of the door. To most people that means absolutely nothing. To me it meant the world! Later, I asked one of the nurses about it and she said they are not allowed to have latex anywhere so she has no idea where it came from.
As many of you know, my little nephew went home to be with the Lord a short time ago. Last year on his birthday we released blue balloon into the sky in celebration of him. It was a heart-wrenching yet joyous occasion. (see my last post) So you can imagine my feelings when this little blue balloon, slightly deflated with a blue ribbon still attached, lay right in front of me on this particularly rough day. It was a reminder of God's truths and it spoke right to my heart!
2 Corinthians 4:17-18 “For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”
These days things are hard but it's preparing me for something so much more. Our lives here on Earth are short, but our lives with our Savior are eternal. No matter what is going on in the here and now, God is working through every circumstance.
I needed to hear God speak to me today. And isn't God perfect in how He does it. He used the memory of the most precious little boy to speak the most gracious, loving words in the perfect peaceful moment. It truly changed my outlook on a tough day. It changed a frustrated heart of turmoil into a heart of gratitude. It made me thankful for this program, thankful for the opportunity, the doctors, nurses, skilled staff, and therapists. It made me thankful for my family and friends back home who are helping us and praying for us. It made me thankful for Keaton. It made me thankful that my God is a loving and good father. Tonight I get to rest, knowing tomorrow may be another tough day but this is only a light and momentary trouble. It won't last forever. And what lies waiting ahead of us after this glimpse of life is over, is nothing short of glorious.
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