This program has been hard on this mama. It has been hard and stressful on my sweet boy and my family back home. I cannot tell you how wonderful it will feel to open that door to my house tomorrow and just breathe in HOME! Oh, to take a long hot bath that isn't similar to a communal tub from the pits of college hell. Oh yes, I will be thankful to eat a breakfast that doesn't consist of yogurt and bad coffee. I cannot wait to sleep in my own bed and be under the same roof with the other 2 pieces of my heart. I'm even excited to see my fuzzy little dog. As I write, my husband is home preparing for our arrival. He is tidying up everything and making it feel like home; inviting and warm. It will be glorious to be home!
Tonight, that thought has me thinking of my real home, in Heaven. Is this yearning and longing I feel now for my earthly home a mere shadow of what I should feel for my eternal home? Of course it is! I, too often, get caught up in the grind of daily living. So much so that sometimes I forget to yearn for what is to come on the other side of these shadowlands, as C.S. Lewis calls them. I forget to thank the Lord, that He has gone before me and is preparing my place at His table. That one day this life will be over and I will get to meet my savior face to face. I forget that, daily, I need to set my heart on the truth that I will get to be with Him forever. There will never be a second when I will wonder if He is still there. Never a moment will pass without me being able to talk to Him and praise Him. Never will I question His love for me. Never will I want or long for anything more than to spend all eternity with Him. Now that is something worth longing for!
My prayer tonight is that I would be able to set my eyes and heart on what is to come after this glimpse of life fades away. I pray that as my eyes focus more on Him, every other longing would grow strangely dim.
