Longing for Home

On the eve of our journey back home, I lay here next to my little man who is just shy of 1 pound heavier than a month ago. A pound is nothing right?!? Well, for him it surely hasn't come easily. He fought for that pound through tears, meltdowns, gagging and vomit. It came through new chairs and cups and spoons and foods he has never even dared to put to his tongue. We are so very  thankful for all the help we have received here. We are thankful for every growth and every triumph.

This program has been hard on this mama. It has been hard and stressful on my sweet boy and my family back home. I cannot tell you how wonderful it will feel to open that door to my house tomorrow and just breathe in HOME! Oh, to take a long hot bath that isn't similar to a communal tub from the pits of college hell. Oh yes, I will be thankful to eat a breakfast that doesn't consist of yogurt and bad coffee. I cannot wait to sleep in my own bed and be under the same roof with the other 2 pieces of my heart. I'm even excited to see my fuzzy little dog. As I write, my husband is home preparing for our arrival. He is tidying up everything and making it feel like home; inviting and warm. It will be glorious to be home!

Tonight, that thought has me thinking of my real home, in Heaven. Is this yearning and longing I feel now for my earthly home a mere shadow of what I should feel for my eternal home? Of course it is! I, too often, get caught up in the grind of daily living. So much so that sometimes I forget to yearn for what is to come on the other side of these shadowlands, as C.S. Lewis calls them. I forget to thank the Lord, that He has gone before me and is preparing my place at His table. That one day this life will be over and I will get to meet my savior face to face. I forget that, daily, I need to set my heart on the truth that I will get to be with Him forever. There will never be a second when I will wonder if He is still there. Never a moment will pass without me being able to talk to Him and praise Him. Never will I question His love for me. Never will I want or long for anything more than to spend all eternity with Him. Now that is something worth longing for!

My prayer tonight is that I would be able to set my eyes and heart on what is to come after this glimpse of life fades away. I pray that as my eyes focus more on Him, every other longing would grow strangely dim.